The travail of my soul

"Qualification for Serving the Lord’s Purposes - The Lord does
really need men and women to serve His ends.... His need may
be very great, and yet He may not be able now to open the way
for you to come in to serve Him. . . The Lord is waiting until your
heart is broken over this whole situation... It must be a matter of
heart-love for the Lord and for what is His, and not for the work,
the ministry; not for anything but for your Lord and what is His.
When you get there, and you are found upon your face before the
Lord breaking your heart because you see He is not getting what
He ought to have, when this becomes the travail of your soul, you
will find the Lord will begin to do something."
-T. Austin-Sparks.

I want this.