Thursday, November 30, 2006

BJ's new nickname must have somthing to do with typefaces.

Because he's obsessed.. But I will say that it provides my family and I with much amusement.

I am eating one of my mint daisies that Jordan got me. They are "Delicious"..

1. When you see a dead thing in the road, do you try to see what kind of animal it was? Actually, now that I think about it, I do too. The other day I ran to the church buliding to fax something, and there was this dog just standing in the road on the other side. I honked at it and it moved off the road. But when I drove back just 10 minutes later... the poor doggie was dead. It was so sad! I almost turned around to go knock on the peoples' door and tell them but there was no way they could've rescued it. It was D-E-A-D. Vuurry sad.. I always try not to run over something that's already dead. Who wants road kill guts on their car?

2. When you go into a store, do you go straight to the sales racks, or do you look around the store first? I used to be a very strict sale person. All I ever really looked at was sales. I would always find this great piece, a shirt or skirt, but never anything to go with it, so I'd have this cheap piece of clothing and nothing to wear with it and so it sits in the closet, very lonely. Now I browse all over and pick up all kinds of stuff.

3. Are you susceptible to a sales pitch? No. Not at all. I laugh at those who are! Like all the suckers who buy the $30 nail buffing kit when they can get the same thing at Wal-Mart for a total of $5.

4. What is the number one thing you want for Christmas? My Hope Chest - it's a big thing 1/2 Birthday, 1/2 Christmas. But the other 1/2 Christmas is one of those plug in tea kettle things. But they're really expensive. So a pretty tea kettle will do (but not one of those tiny ones).

5. If you HAD to choose one, would you skydive or bungee jump? uuuhh.. Skydive. I don't like the idea of bouncing over and over upside down from a great hieght.

6. Where were you the last time you sneezed? And did anyone say "God bless you"? I was here in my house this afternoon sweeping the kitchen, and no one was here, and I'm not one of those people who says "bless me".

7. When you brush your teeth, do you also brush your toungue? Usually, but not every time. It depends on whether or not I'm in a hurry.

8. How much personal space do you require? It depends on who it is. If it's Jordan, Lauren, Holly, Poppy, or Momma.. I don't care. Anybody else.. sitting next to me - a couple inches, talking to me - about 2 feet.

9. Which do you prefer, silver or gold? Silver. I used to HATE gold. But it's warmed up to me.. I don't like it in large quantities though.

10. Do you like reality tv? No. It's entirely, and in every way unrealistic. Like "The Bachelor".. my mom watched it this season, and I caught some of it. It was SO stupid.

11. Do you like the old Parent Trap movie or the new Parent Trap movie better (you can insert your own movie-with-a-remake if you want)? It's tough, but I think I like the old one better.

12. What is your favorite movie that you're sure no one else likes? Luther. No matter how much I try I can't talk anybody into watching it. After you see it I'd probly have to change this.. Because it really is a good movie!

13. What is your favorite typeface? Monotype Corsiva. I just love it. It's very "me".

In attempting to look up the history for "Monotype Corsiva" I stumbled across this:

Ugh.. after 2 tries I can't make it show up. It's a picture. I'm frustrated. Fix it BJ.

Nevermind. Here's a link: Virtual Church of the Blind Chihuahua

Monday, November 20, 2006


I found this poem. It's very relevant right now.
by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate...
and the Master so gently said,"Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

My future and all to which I relate
hangs in the balance and you tell me to Wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign.
Or even a 'no,' to which I'll resign.

You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
as my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
and grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting...for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine...
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
you'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
when darkness and silence are all you can see.

You'd never experience the fullness of love
when the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

The glow of My comfort late into the night,
the faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

You'd never know should your pain quickly flee,
what it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
but oh, the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you.

So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
that the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still "Wait".

I'm waiting on a lot of things right now. I'm waiting to hear about a job. I'm waiting for my 2 weeks notice to be up (it can't come fast enough), I'm waiting for Thursday to get here, I'm waiting for Sunday - I turn 18 but I don't know if that feels significant or not, I'm waiting to hear from the Lord, for my prayers to be answered in any way He deems appropriate.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Someone please kick me/Favor

I just spent the last hour typing out a word study on "favor" in here. And then I accidentally closed it when I opened up the task manager. I was attempting to close this stupid pop-up we keep getting, and closed this screen instead. Maybe I'll re-type it later..

The reason I was putting it here, and the jist of it was this: Favor in the OT is being found acceptable to God, also it's attaining his grace, or it can even mean "face". Favor is found through righteousness - as is shown by the lives of those in the OT who had the favor of God - or through the seeking of wisdom. In gaurding wisdom to your heart, you gain the favor/grace of God. It is also notable that in some cases, in seeking the favor of God, you seek his face. (You're just gonna have to take my word for it. I had all the strongs definitions, and scriptures to back it up.. it's on blueletterbible)

Favor in the NT only has one meaning. The word is:

Charis - khar-ece 1) grace

a) that which affords joy, pleasure, delight, sweetness, charm, loveliness: grace of speech

2) good will, loving-kindness, favour

a) of the merciful kindness by which God, exerting his holy influence upon souls, turns them to Christ, keeps, strengthens, increases them in Christian faith, knowledge, affection, and kindles them to the exercise of the Christian virtues
3) what is due to grace

a) the spiritual condition of one governed by the power of divine grace

b) the token or proof of grace, benefit

1) a gift of grace

2) benefit, bounty

4) thanks, (for benefits, services, favours), recompense, reward

We're all familiar with the scripture that says that Jesus "increased in knowledge and stature and gained favour in the sight of God and man" (Luke 2:52).. Notice it says God AND man. So one of the other scriptures that uses this word is Acts 2:46-47, which we are all familiar with:

"And they, continuing daily with one accord in the temple, and breaking bread from house to house, did eat their meat with gladness and singleness of heart, Praising God, and having favour with all the people. And the Lord added to the church daily such as should be saved."

So.. the way I read that it says that they had house church, were unified and happy, praised God, and showed the merciful kindness of God to the people, exerted His holy influence upon souls, turned them to Christ, kept, strengthened, and increased them in Christian faith, knowledge, and affection, and kindled them to the excercise of Christian virtues. And the Lord added to the church.. Think about what that means for us in the home church. I don't think we have even half that.

The favor of God is like His trademark. It's a stamp He puts upon those whom he approves of. It makes it obvious to everyone who you serve. Think about all the people in the old and new testaments who had the favor of God: Abraham, Moses, Samuel, David, Solomon, Esther, Ruth, Elijah, Daniel, Peter, John, Paul... God's favor was obvious.

It makes me think about where I stand. The thing that got me thinking about this is that I had a job interview today that went very well. I'm going to have a second interview with them next week. It's a very large company and very good position. The fact that they would even consider me is unbelievable. It's apparent that I have favor with these people, and with the placement agency I'm with. But I wonder what that is even worth if I don't have favor with God. Nothing really. Earthly favor with man is temporary and can be taken away or destroyed. But favor with God is invaluable.

The question is, what now must I do? When I really look at my life I can't say that it has such an obvious stamp upon it. I don't measure up the the standard for His favor. Just what does that mean? Where does that put me? Something I don't want to forget is that the favor of God only exists to bring Him more glory. It exists to humble me further. His favor will only rest upon those who are righteous. The only thing righteous in me is Jesus Christ.

So my prayer... purge me of me.

God is always reminding me that I'm just in the beginning. Once again, I marvel at how far I have to go, and i'm in awe of His mercy that would allow me to dwell with Him even now, in my unperfected state.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

The travail of my soul

"Qualification for Serving the Lord’s Purposes - The Lord does
really need men and women to serve His ends.... His need may
be very great, and yet He may not be able now to open the way
for you to come in to serve Him. . . The Lord is waiting until your
heart is broken over this whole situation... It must be a matter of
heart-love for the Lord and for what is His, and not for the work,
the ministry; not for anything but for your Lord and what is His.
When you get there, and you are found upon your face before the
Lord breaking your heart because you see He is not getting what
He ought to have, when this becomes the travail of your soul, you
will find the Lord will begin to do something."

-T. Austin-Sparks.

I want this.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Yes another one..

I am bored, and I just really... really don't want to post about anything of substance right now. So here you go.

1. Where were you 1 hour ago? Sitting here on my bed filling out SF-10 applications for state jobs. Ya'll pray that I get another job SOON!

2. When is the last time you filled up your gas tank? Filled up???? I can't remember. My dad filled it up for me, because I just didn't have the time. The only time I get in my car is when I'm in a mad rush to get somewhere and I only have time to put like 2 gallons in.

3. What is the most amount of money you spent in one store? Oh gosh.. maybe.. umm.. I really don't know.

4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? Some fake flowers on my desk, some stuff in my trashcan, a cup of water that Jordan was using to paint with, One of those chinese umbrellas, and that hot pink notebook Kandi gave the girls at the last camp

5. When is the last time you went to the mall? ummm... Last Wednesday I think. I hate shopping there.

6. Are you wearing socks right now? Nuh uh

7. Do you have a car worth over $5,000? Probably not.

8. When was the last time you drove out of town? A few weeks ago when we visited my sister.

9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days? Nope

10. Are you popular? Who do I have to be popular with?

11. What was the last thing you had to drink? Some wonderful not-from-concentrate grapefruit juice. Yum.

12. What was the last thing you mailed in the mail? I'm going to be mailing some applications in the morning.

13. Do you wash your car? Occasionally. I wash my moms more often than my own.

14. Last fast food you ate. Jack in the Box with Bro. Teryl and Nan and Lauren and her family.

15. Where were you last week at this time? Sleeping

16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? Yes. Some jeans, a sweater, a long sleeve shirt, and two short sleeve shirts.

17. What bank do you use? Not telling. This is the internet. That would be dumb.

18. Do you own any land? I wish.

19. What do you want to be when you "grow up"? A servant of the only living, Holy God.

20. Your dream vacation? Somewhere in Kentucky, in the mountains, in the fall with all the colors changing, at a cabin with a fireplace.

21. Last boat ride you went on? Wow.. probly a couple summers ago at my Uncles..

22. How old are your parents? 53 and 55

23. Are you in love? no, not that I know of.

24. Do you have any single friends? umm.. yes!

25. Last play you saw? Jordans Cafe Murder one.

26. Have you been to New York? No..

27. What are your plans for tonight? Sleep

28. Last concert you went to? The Symphony.

29. Next trip you are going to take? Jordan and I are gonna go Christmas shopping in Alabama in a few weeks.

30. Ever go to camp? Yes.. 7 times. I went twice in one year the year I was a counselor.

31. Were you an honor roll student in school? Sometimes.

32. What is your current GPA? Don't have one.

33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne? not right now.

34. Are you hungry? Maybe. I haven't had much to eat today. But it's too late now.

37. Do you have a tan? No. Not at all. I glow in the dark.

38. How old do you want to be when you have kids? umm.. When God decides He wants me to, I'll have them, and not any sooner!!!

39. Do you collect anything? I have one of those state quarter things but I don't really keep track of it. I keep all the cards and letter people have given me.

40. Is this quiz annoying? only if you don't like reading it.

41. Last time you got pulled over? Never.

42. Ever been arrested? nope

43. Been to Mexico for Spring Break? No thank you.

44. Do you like hot sauce? No.. if you have to add hot sauce then it's not seasoned right to begin with.

45. Omit this question

46. Do you need to do laundry? Nope. I did it today. I just need to help Jordan put it away now.

47. How many friends do you have? good friends? If I go by all the people who came to my graduation party.. over 40.

48. Are you someone's best friend? uh huh.. at least I hope so.

49. Are you rich? Not in the things that I'd like to be rich in.. like love, righteousness, and the such.

50. What are you thinking right this minute? Nevermind.